Why can't I be lucky!!

Why can't I be one of the lucky ones to deliver early?!?! oh no my butt will still probably be here HUGE in June..... :/ Everyone's having their baby BUT ME!!

vent over...i can now go on being pregnant forever :D

36 week prenatal!

went well! gained some more weight, but thats what your suppose to do after all ;). Listened to the baby, she sounds great, she was resting and her heart rate was 135. Measuring good still. And Hip Hip Hooray-she is in the right position!!! she is no longer "sunny side up" I've been working hard on this, so i'm relieved at the results! She is also estimated to be 6 lbs 8 ounces so thats good too I'm happy she is healthy in there and at a good weight especially with the 2V cord (most babies have a 3V cord), so even though my body is having to work extra hard to get her everything we needs i'm relieved at our efforts :). Usually at ob offices they start checking you for cervical dilation/effacement etc. but we dont do that here at the midwives place and i'm actually just fine with that because it doesnt tell you SQUAT! if you are dilated then you get excited thinking baby could come any moment (which can happen anyway) plus it gets family all riled up and excited which adds more pressure for the pregnant mother and adds more questions like "when is baby coming?" I still dont know! lol and if your not dilated to anything that its a big fat disappointment thinking you'll be pregnant forever. So I'm glad to just be at peace with whatever is going on down there whatever it may be :)

Greatest news is since something is up with the place you order the birth kit from, guy is out of town, etc, Molly went ahead and ordered some before he went out of town because he told her it would be a bit before he started re-filling orders so anyway that is one less thing we have to do now, and since i got it from her i dont have to wait for it to be delivered! so we are all ready to go!!!!! i'm pumped! it feels good to have everything in one room and in one place all ready for her whenever she needs it. All we need to do now is go to sams and stock the freezer so we dont have to think about food for a week or so after she gets here. I feel like I can just relax now and enjoy the rest of this pregnancy, whatever is left of it, because i know i'll miss it once its gone. Even though she'll be in my arms i'll miss the little rambunctious thing in my stomach :)

Next appt is the Home Visit!! its next thursday, and if anyone knows my husband than you know he is already freaking out about cleaning his already clean house! LOL he is insane!

36 week update!!

Thats right 36 weeks!! 9 months pregnant, and only 1 month to go!! well maybe/maybe not thats part of the fun the last month brings is when will she come?? eh who knows...only her and god know that, but all i ask is when she comes she is ready which at this point is the most likely thing to happen, so we've at least made it to that point where if she were to come today, i could still have her at home! I've been dreaming of this homebirth for a long time and I'm so glad that its so close! I'm so excited!!

Physically...... :( I'm hurting, my sciatic nerve is REALLY REALLY bothering me! sometimes it doesnt hurt as bad but its a lingering pain that never goes away. Things that make it worse are if its the end of the day and I've been going and going all day, and then I go to get up and its SO HARD to walk, included with limping and everything. Things that make it not as bad are trying to walk through it, the more I move the better it feels sometimes even though at the end of all the "walking through it" is when it gets bad, so its just a never ending cycle but its not the worst thing of course, its nothing I can't get through just....bothersome I guess is the right word. My uterus is so high up sometimes I feel like its in my throat! Well its not really of course but its been in a battle with my rib cage and so far the uterus is winning because the rib cage is hurting pretty bad especially at night, but with a few extra pillows at least I can sleep, unless I go to rollover which then brings on the sciatic pain FULL FORCE! but every day we just keep on going, its all part of the deal :) I'll make it through only a few more weeks! These few aches and pains are going to be NOTHING compared to the real deal only, when in labor there is an end and a purpose...and this random pain just seems so pointless and annoying! thats whats bothering me the most about it!

The gentle birth formula has been increased to 3 times a day now and its ok, i'm getting used to it I guess. I just keep in mind that its at least good for me if nothing else, I'm really hoping it works like they say it does and helps with the labor/delivery! We have been really getting busy getting things marked off on our list of things to get for the baby, we just have to order the birth kit from "inhishands" which is the website we'll get it from and we'll be good to go! I would of ordered it last week so it would of been here in time for 36 weeks but the man who runs the website or something like that was out of town for 10 days so the midwives said they thought I could wait. I really dont see myself delivering before 40 weeks anyway, that way if I do it will be a surprise, but for now the end of May is what I have in mind :) plus the closer to rusty's anniversary date (the 27th of May) at his job the better that way he'll get his vacation time and we'll have to jump through less hoops to get him off work for FMLA paternity leave. He'll be taking 4 weeks and I'm SOOOO looking forward to having him home with me to all bond as our new family of 4.

I've also felt myself avoiding people so I dont have to answer questions, lol, I just want to wear a sign that says, yes i'm due any day, yes i'm ready for her to be here, no i dont know how much longer, and yes i'm having her at home. :) but thats just normal 3rd trimester hormones talking because i'm normally not one to avoid people or be rude. I like people and love hanging out with our friends and engaging in conversation normal things like that but when i'm this close all the questions just add to the anxiety for some reason.

I have my 36 week appointment on Tuesday with Kelly and then weekly after that until she gets here, so I'll update again then!

Here is the 36 week picture...the 1st one is with Carrson

Excuse me Uterus!

I'm not sure that my uterus could stretch any farther up in to my ribs...although i'm sure i'll be proven wrong...

Picture Update

i look lopsided LOL
from the side
Big Brother & Little Sister Shirts :)
Her Lady Bug onesie :)

35 weeks!

35 weeks seems just unreal!! This Friday we will be safe to deliver....seriously?!?!?! Now that could go all the way in to June but the window for her arrival is definitely opening!!!! We got several things marked off of our list but not everything, although its coming together nicely, we have a storage bin in Paisleys room and when we get things we put them in there that way they can all be together, when the time comes that we need them.

I'm getting used to the gentle birth formula, I'm not staring at it for so long before I actually put it in my mouth and swallow it lol. The evening primrose oil is going well too I suppose, the first night I didnt feel anything different but the more nights I do it I'm starting to feel yucky down there, just wet and gross, not sure how else to put it lol, so sorry if that was too blunt ;)

Physically things are changing for me, for sure. I've started full out leaking now, so thats good she has something to eat when she gets here ;). My ribs are aching and hurting something serious! Its more of a soreness really but its so bad especially at night that I'm having a hard time sleeping on either side. My sciatic nerve has also started up again...just like it did with Carrson around this time :( nothing seems to make that pain go away except for delivery...I've tried all kinds of stretches and sometimes just walking it out a bit helps but its a shooting pain right at the top of my left leg, and when I take pressure off of it is when it hurts the most, think standing up to put your pants on, when i stand on my left leg to lift my right leg in, its no big deal but i have to sit down to put the left leg in cause i'm afraid i'll fall otherwise, standing on my right leg and lifting my left one up is just too sore.

You know your almost 9 months pregnant when:

there is no lap left for your laptop :(

your belly is so big that your boobs actually look small, even at a full D

if your sitting down and want to lean forward you have to spread your legs a little farther so your belly fits between and you can get some leverage to get up

Oh we also found her first two outfits! yes out of all the clothes she has I couldnt find anything that I just couldnt wait to put on her for her first outfit but we've found them! I'm so excited! I've taken pics and I'll upload them with my belly picture. My poor stomach is hanging in front it looks like lol, oh well it can only get bigger :) We'll just have to wait and see!

gentle birth formula

tastes HORRIBLE! but I'm gonna deal with it ;) 2 dropperfuls twice a day until next friday when the dosage ups to 2 dropperfuls 3 times a day! YUCK

my new mantra...."this will help me, i love gentle birth formula, this will help me i love gentle birth formula"

34 week pre-natal

so I'm going to try and not jump around so much I have a lot to write about our appointment so i'm going to do my best to keep on track and my thoughts in order lol...

1st- my weight gain is up to, oh i dont know the total but i weigh 141, thats the most i've ever weighed in my lifetime lol guess it has a lot to do with me not working for the entire pregnancy like i was with Carrson...

2nd- i've got two new pregnancy concoctions i'm going to be taking starting at 35 weeks, which is friday. I've got something thats called "gentle birth formula" and its a liquid form.....i DESPISE liquid meds :(....but will do my best to take my dosage just like i'm supposed to, its got all kinds of good herbs in it, pregnancy related, its been perceived to assist in a much easier labor and delivery, advanced dilation before discomfort arises, minimization of postpartum blood loss (this is of course a big one for us), shorter recovery time, less pain during labor and delivery, shorter and easier labors for those who tend to have long difficult births and happy well contented babies....so even if the formula does nothing...it can't hurt me for sure :) The Next thing i'm going to start taking is Evening Primrose Oil, I'll insert one capsule vaginally every night and this will help soften my cervix and get it ready to do the hard work that is ahead :)

3rd- I'm measuring 33.5 weeks so she is growing perfectly, when Kelly (midwife) first felt around she was exactly as she should be, anterior, but then we saw my belly go soft, lol, and the little stinker and completely turned around!! i've got to keep doing all i can to keep her in an anterior position and for her to quit turning like that! Her head is down and low but not engaged..once its engaged she'll quit turning over so much, but when she engages we need her to be in the anterior postion NOT POSTERIOR!! come on paisley!! Her heart rate is also 148 which is spot on for her...PERFECT! Kelly also says she has plenty of fluid so go me for drinking all the water like i'm supposed to. The next time we go which is at 36 weeks Kelly will start guessing about how much she weighs, i'm not nervous at all about this because fat squishes and i'm confident that my body will not grow a bigger baby than i can birth...even if it is 8-9 lbs...seriously its not something that freaks me out, i actually wouldn't mind a bigger baby :)

4th- the home visit! is on May 7 and I'll be 37 weeks pregnant! dang near 38 weeks! The midwives will make a trip to our house that way they are for sure they know the way to get here, and can get a feel for where things are in our house etc, and we'll do the pre-natal from here that time...guess we'll be skipping weight that day cause i dont own a scale! HA! We also got our list for everything we need supply wise to have on hand at the house for when I deliever, things like extra towels, wash cloths, peroxide, a shower curtain to protect our mattress just in case i decide i want to deliver in our bed (which as of now i'm all about the water birth) there is some more stuff on there but i'd have to get up to get the list lol and i'm not gonna ;) we also have to order the homebirth kit, which is just a kit complied of throw away things that they will need like gloves, syringe for baby, chux pads, trash bags, etc...so there is a lot to do in just a short amount of time... HELLO PANIC MODE!! oh my there isnt enough time in the day or enough money to go around!!

I think that was all we talked about this time...there were two brand new babies there today oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I can't wait till I get to hold mine!!!!!!! gosh they were so cute!!! Oh I did have my first baby dream, i've been having dreams all along but this was the first one actually about paisley, dreams never make sense once you wake up but try and follow along lol, Paisley had just gotten here and I fed her of course, well we laid down to take a nap and I woke up to someone else holding her, she was fussing and I look at the clock and yep right on time to feed her again, so I ask for her back and whoever was holding her (really not sure who) was just trying to console her by them self...ugh! i was pissed! i was like give me my baby back she is HUNGRY!! anyway it was kind of sweet actually dreaming about paisley and not just random crap that doesnt ever make sense lol.

Well thats all for now! we have LOTS to do and get done so hopefully before the next time I update I'll have been able to mark some things off of my lists!!!

Happy Easter!! 34 weeks!

Well its odd to me because i've had my heart set on the fact that i'm just going to be overdue, May is going to come and go and it will be June before I'm holding this little girl. Which could very well be true but its weird that all this has happened so fast! its safe for her to come anywhere from 2-8 weeks! I-N-S-A-N-E! we'll see what birthday she picks but for now, my ribs feel like they are cracking in half! i just want rusty to put one hand on each side of me and squeeze! they have been hurting really bad and i dont remember them bothering me this much last time with carrson, but if you remembered every detail from every pregnancy, no one would ever have more than one child ;) you forget things :) So I really wanted to see the chiropractor a few more times before i went in to labor but....she gave birth to her baby this past week! so i'm not sure when she'll be back to taking clients but if she isnt before I have Paisley of course I forgive her cause those first few weeks are precious! heck more than that but I do understand some have to go back to work.....I have also been noticing a little bit of swelling in my fingers....no where else just my fingers, they feel fat and tight for a lot of the day so i'm guessing thats what this is. Paisley also likes to play around in my hips! little stinker She has really made herself comfortable in my pelvis lately, its putting a lot of pressure on my pubic bone and that does not feel great but for the most part I dont notice it unless its at night and I go to roll over, for some reason that irritates it, or if i've been sitting down and I go to get up...those are the two worst things I can do that irritate that pain.

Everyone keeps asking me if i'm "done" yet...you know that feeling you get when you just dont want to be pregnant anymore....and I'm not quite there yet, I still have a few more things to cross off on my list for her and for me and for the house for that matter before I feel completely ready for her to come, so over the next few weeks we'll be crossing things off of our list and getting closer and closer to her arrival! So no I'm not "done" yet...not yet :)

Braxton Hicks contractions seem like they are all the time now, its nothing painful, some are stronger than others yes, and last for longer, but nothing that really hurts. She gets the hiccups all the time, ALL the time! I know i've talked about it before but I notice them a lot! guess its good though cause she is practicing swallowing ;)

I've been out and about more with Carrson with the nicer weather so we've been getting good walks in around the neighborhood and doing some yoga on the wii fit, as well as other stretches and sitting on my ball etc, just trying to make sure that she is in the right position for birth. I have my next pre-natal on Tuesday so I'll update with more then :)

Week 33

Not much going on this week, lots of movement i think she is OP, which means Occupit (head) is Posterior (face up) because of all the limbs i feel, occasionally i feel/see her hiney poke up, which is good because you want her to be Anterior, its easier for labor/delivery, so i've supposed to have been working on different positions to help keep her in the Anterior Position, but of course sometimes i dont....the things i'm supposed to do are keeping my self in a good position, not leaning back, because then her butt swings around toward my back, but i need to start working on all this because its going to be very important very soon for her to be in a good position, the better position for her exit will mean a shorter labor/delivery time for me...thats something we are definitely hoping for! Please no sunny side up baby for me :D

I've got her room all cleaned up and the ceiling fan is put up now it looks so good in her room! not to mention it makes her room feel wonderful! her room was the hottest in the house for some reason...guess there is always one. All of Carrson's clothes that were in storage bins in her closet are now put up in the attic...guess we wont be needing those ;). Now we'll have to start a whole new set of storage bins for when all Paisleys clothes get to small for her, which i'm sure will be fast, i hate how fast they grow at first :(

I'm ready for Easter this weekend, I have no idea what we are doing but an egg hunt of some kind is in the works i'm sure and Carrson will surely love it! Next Pre-natal is next week!

All the Pills!!! OY!

So thats what they all look like ;), its almost as many pills as a senior citizen takes :) i only took one measley pill a day with Carrson :)