38 week update! Looooooooooong!

38 weeks! I'm hardly believing it, but I must admit its getting a bit more real now, she is so active it hurts! but amazingly enough I love it! she is in my hips and out my sides and all up top all at the same time its an amazingly wonderful feeling but part of me is nervous! how big is she? well I hope big enough so that I have something to push against when it comes time to push her out! Which I'm getting so darn excited for! I know to some its crazy that I'm excited for pain but I'm not thinking of it as pain I'm thinking of it as hard work that my body knows how to do to get her out here to the world safely! I can't wait! I've been watching lots of Natural homebirth/waterbirth videos lately and they all seem to go about the same calm and collected until transition (stage right before pushing, where women often "lose it") and then they all make some sound of their choice while pushing, some scream, some moan, some grunt, some flap their lips like a horse, i'm sure I'll have my own birth song but as soon as its over these women are pain free! and then whats even better is reading the birth stories and seeing how all these women WILL ADMIT that yes it hurt but it was the best feeling of their life and they would do it over and over and over again. I can't wait to have a birth story of my own! and YES I had an epidural with my first people GET OVER IT! I've learned so much about my self and my body and what we are capable of since Carrson's Birth, With him I knew NOTHING just nada, I was scared out of my mind and just wanted someone to knock me out put me under and give me him when they were done. But I've grown so much from that place and that way of thinking and I'm SO excited to have this journey and this amazing and natural process happen just the way god intended it, I can do it! YES PEOPLE I CAN DO IT!

All of our things are ready, all I have to do now is go to Sams and stock up on some freezer items so we dont have much to think about when it comes to dinner for the first few weeks, and we'll be making that trip this Saturday. Oh and I have one more pedicure promised to me by my wonderful mother by HER lady, (no one else has gotten the privilege of using her when we get our toes done, only my grandmother) and I'm so excited! I told her to brush up on her labor inducing skills so when I get there she can put me into labor, lol, she said she'd see what she could do :). Its more real now to me that there is a baby in there and she is going to come out, maybe its cause i KNOW and can FEEL her running out of room and we are going to have her at our house (no pun intended) and she will be all ours! We'll get to nurse (i'm so excited!) and change her diaper, and her clothes, and we'll get to have a newborn again! Thank you lord for blessing our family again! We are so thankful!

We had our home visit last Thursday and it went well, they found our house no problem, so they know where they are going now when I give them the REAL call and we talked a little bit more about my sciatic nerve thats been bugging me so bad and causing me so much leg pain, well I buckled down and took their advice and saw the chiro they suggested that they've seen do right by pregnant women :) and she is AWESOME so I went on Saturday and it felt wonderful, I was a little sore walking out of there, like i'd had a good workout at the gym or something, and then we came home took a nap and I woke up feeling great, and now I'm back to the sore feeling again, but she showed me a stretch too that I can do to make my leg feel better and it works, the pain is at least tolerable and I'm going back again on Saturday just to make sure my body is all aligned and hips/pelvis etc is all in order and ready for upcoming birthing and i'll just continue to go every week until I deliver.

As far as feeling 38 weeks pregnant I'm pretty lucky I guess I feel as good as I think I should given the extra poundage I've put on my body and so while naturally I've slowed down a little, and its hard to get up, or change positions etc. I feel like I'm getting along just fine if you have a few extra seconds to let me catch up :D I'm sleeping great (rusty said he caught me snoring the other night) so I feel good in that area Thank God for the HUGE maternity pillow that wraps the entire way around my body. It looks like a huge U so its the same on both sides and it works wonderfully! I'm having some digestion issues, not "heart burn" because it doesnt burn but its taking a little bit for food/drink to go down, I have to make sure I sit up in the upright position for a while after a meal other wise it gets burped back up, reminds me of Carrson's acid reflux really but at least mine doesnt burn, just uncomfortable. Rusty and I are taking Carrson to a Ranger Game tomorrow so a little family date before Paisley gets here will be nice for us. We are going right after our prenatal so its going to be a long afternoon but I'm excited for it! I'm not getting checked because I have no desire to know how effaced/dilated I am cause all it does is make everyone anxious and like I've said before it has no direct relation to when I'll go into labor.

Mothers Day was wonderful we all went and had a picnic at the park. My entire family and Rusty's family also my brother in laws family all went to the park and had a barbeque cooking hamburgers and hot dogs and such and it was fun! The whole family got to be there and everyone had a great time! The Kids were pooped! Then my sister mom and I went to play Sunday Night Bingo and that is fun as always, would of been better if we won, but we didn't :( Maybe next time!

I probably wont get to update again until Wednesday but I'll let ya know how the midwife appt went! Have a great week!